When I was 13 years old my mother decided to end her own life. Over the years I have done a lot of processing and whilst I am not in any way placing any fault on her, I do still try to understand how she felt and how her mental disorder affected her being. I am writing these blog posts to understand my feelings and thoughts, to have a place to document my journey and maybe also help someone on theirs. I don't know anyone else who has experienced the same thing I have, so I understand how lonely it can be. Please remember,  I am not a professional psychologist or psychiatrist. Anything I write reflects my personal thoughts and experiences. If you need any professional support, please go and look up your local resources. xoxo